Post by Maladra Head of Security on Feb 16, 2018 19:56:03 GMT -5
Today I was left with my own ability to discuss, in its entirety, my work. I was able to determine that over these many years that my heart broke the day my research destroyed many lives. But, through this, I was able to figure out why. The Harbringer project led me to believe some had extraordinary abilities locked away inside them, only needing the key to bring them out into the light to be used for our purpose. But, time and time again I discovered that some didn't harness this ability. Those children, all of them, died by my hands. Their blood stains them red. For that, I cannot begin to comprehend the amount of disgrace I feel. Those poor souls lost behind my greed and idiocy.
Though, their loss did help me after all. They helped bring forth a new understanding and with that, new hope. These Harbringers are something so interesting it still gives me chills researching them. My research turned out to be incorrect as a whole. These beings are not at all new forms. They aren't even secondary beings at all. My work surrounded breaking them free when they aren't even beings, to begin with. After a long and gratuitous process of study, I discovered a new hypothesis. These beings aren't, as I said before, real. They are manifestations of one's heart. It's strange to say aloud, even more so without real science being done to prove this. But, time after time, that was the only place the pieces seemed to fit. When one has a strong soul and heart, that's when it matters. This explains my downfall. HIS downfall. They all have strong hearts, even the dead one. This also explains why the Liwa boy, and his daughter, have these abilities. They aren't hereditary by default.
But, Kaiden's heart still worries me. Nocturne broke that day... The look of him being swallowed in front of me still brings back the feeling of dread that day. In a way, I discovered something about that being. The one they now call Noxious, he seems to place himself highly among the other 4. Like, the 5th.
Wouldn't it be fitting for him to be called the being of Life? It's strange, but, after considering how idiotic that sounded, it began to form itself into making sense. Life, in its entirety, is the most chaotic of all things in existence. There are changes without warning, nature causing damage, being calm. Despite his brashness and crazed ideas, it feels fitting almost. The surprise 5th horseman... How annoying. But, why is Noxious a thing to begin with? What happened?
I have a feeling that this 'being' is a part of Kaiden's heart. A part he managed to tear out of his very soul. But, why? Was it to protect his family? His friends? This I still don't quite know. But, I do know that the two are forever bound to one another. The day they collide will surely bring forth a new age.
That I can be sure of.
Though, their loss did help me after all. They helped bring forth a new understanding and with that, new hope. These Harbringers are something so interesting it still gives me chills researching them. My research turned out to be incorrect as a whole. These beings are not at all new forms. They aren't even secondary beings at all. My work surrounded breaking them free when they aren't even beings, to begin with. After a long and gratuitous process of study, I discovered a new hypothesis. These beings aren't, as I said before, real. They are manifestations of one's heart. It's strange to say aloud, even more so without real science being done to prove this. But, time after time, that was the only place the pieces seemed to fit. When one has a strong soul and heart, that's when it matters. This explains my downfall. HIS downfall. They all have strong hearts, even the dead one. This also explains why the Liwa boy, and his daughter, have these abilities. They aren't hereditary by default.
But, Kaiden's heart still worries me. Nocturne broke that day... The look of him being swallowed in front of me still brings back the feeling of dread that day. In a way, I discovered something about that being. The one they now call Noxious, he seems to place himself highly among the other 4. Like, the 5th.
Wouldn't it be fitting for him to be called the being of Life? It's strange, but, after considering how idiotic that sounded, it began to form itself into making sense. Life, in its entirety, is the most chaotic of all things in existence. There are changes without warning, nature causing damage, being calm. Despite his brashness and crazed ideas, it feels fitting almost. The surprise 5th horseman... How annoying. But, why is Noxious a thing to begin with? What happened?
I have a feeling that this 'being' is a part of Kaiden's heart. A part he managed to tear out of his very soul. But, why? Was it to protect his family? His friends? This I still don't quite know. But, I do know that the two are forever bound to one another. The day they collide will surely bring forth a new age.
That I can be sure of.